Monday spending

I spent close to 8 dollars at the grocery store, and 65 at Wal-mart. I bought ( hand slap) Dan Browns latest book in Hard cover for 25.??, plus a hair dryer and a few food items.

I loved Angels & Demons, and the DaVinci code, so I saw it and bought it. So far I like it... I love books based on a few actual facts... It's the wanna be detective in me.

When I was a little girl I wanted to be either a detective or an archaeologist, but now I do this by reading... My eye sight is too poor to join the RCMP without having laser surgery ( too expensive), and my lack of speaking french means I would never be posted in NB.

I've been up since around 3:00 am today, which means that my anxiety level is on the rise. ( I have no issues with falling asleep, its the staying asleep I have a hard time with on occassion).

So, I need to face the reality that I have bitten off more than i can chew right now ( financially speaking), and need to find a way to pay it off. I'll have to post my numbers and see if anyone else can come up with more solution's.

Which depresses me to no end. I can talk the talk, but I can't walk the walk... I'm so ticked at myself , but then again I made the decisions to spend money that I did not have... No more, not again... I actually owe more money now than ever before... all in total about 156,000.00 ( including mortgage 90,000, car 33,000 and consumer 33,000).

I feel like such as ass right now! How could I do this to myself again!.... DUH! My biggest mistake was never planning my spending for vacation, clothing and doing fun stuff with DD once in while.

So I'm off to do more work, while trying to figure out this mess and not go crazy... Hopefully I'll slepp tonight. First thing I have to do is cancel by monthly book order ( that'll save 40.00/month).

ARGGHHHH!!!! ( thanks for letting me vent!)

Comments

Canadian Saver said…
First thing I'd do is list everything... and set up some kind of plan. You will know how much you have coming in (does that continue in the summer too?) and make a plan starting October 1st.

If you want to post numbers, I'm sure there are many of your readers that will be willing to help... you have to get to a point where it's manageable, and you don't lose sleep over it...