Saturday, September 5, 2015

So, it's the long weekend and an overview of the summer

Things are ticking along nicely and I've got one jam packed schedule from now until Thanksgiving... I just wrote that and thought, holy cow... it's going to be a blast this summer.  I'm heading to a concert on the 11th of July instead of coming directly home... It'll be a good time and my mother is going to keep the dogs for the evening...  I hope everyone is having a great week! ( written June 24/15)

Now that summer is starting to wind down, I thought I'd gather my thoughts and review my summer thus far.

I've gone out and socialized every weekend in one form or another.  Whether it was dancing, drinks, supper or even a quick trip to visit friends, I did something. I've learned to make some kick ass sangria, I've raced through mud, climbed tree's, danced all night, slept in late, and smiled a whole lot!

 I made a conscious decision not to work every weekend this summer ( I worked three Saturday's all summer) and I did chose to work the paid holidays.     Once again, I've pushed myself out of my comfort zone and forced myself to do things that scared me...  You know what? It's not that bad to push yourself beyond what you think you can't do.  

I'm open to meeting new people and having more fun. For an introvert and one who suffers from social anxiety, this can be challenging. I find that the more I push myself,  and ask myself, why, the anxiety is lessening. ( I did have one huge attack in Mayor June that brought me to my knees in the privacy of my own bathroom but after 15 minutes or so, it was done, no drugs, just the comfort of my dogs and using the techniques that I've learned over the years did the trick, and yes, I know this will not work for everyone). 

I had planned on going to the AC/DC concert today, but I've decided against it. I feel the need to just stay around and maybe go for a drive to a beach some where and sit by the water and listen and breath in the salt air. 

I have had some of the best conversations with friends this summer about life, love and loss. I've been a cheerleader ( and they for me) about changing your perception of who you think you want in your life and who will enhance your life ( the lesson here is to figure out what all the others had in common and to understand how that commonality  has impacted your life). Deep thoughts for a Saturday morning, I know.

I must go and walk the dogs shortly and get on with the day. I hope you all have a fantastic weekend.

Monday, August 31, 2015

The last day of August, 2015

Another month done... The summer flew by... Hard to believe that school starts next week.  I worked as normal, had Saturday off and just manly puttered around the house, and did errands. I did go to visit some friends and went out for supper with another group of girls. We got dressed up, dresses and heels, and sat on a patio beside the water. It was wonderful. I spent 50.00 for my meal and it was heavenly. I'd much rather go out once or twice a month and have really good food and really good company than takeout.

I worked at my pt job yesterday, and I took tables for 4 hours, then managed the other 4, which meant I watched and sent all the food out.. Fun fun... I'm not a fan of working Sunday...

I chatted with DD, I watched bits and pieces of the blue jays games... I walked the dogs, adventured to a new trail which was lovely, but had tricky footing. All in all, things are going ok. I hope everyone has a good week.

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Wednesday, Aug 26/15

What's new? Not much... I worked some crazy hours at my ft job this week... I rolled home from work at 1:15 this morning, only to have to be back at work for 8:00 for training this morning. Can you say brain dead this am? Yes, that would be me barely able to put my thoughts into words. I survived and came home with a burst of energy and cleaned my house, did three loads of laundry and demolished a mountain of dishes... I think that my energy level is starting to increase again...

I worked Saturday and Tuesday at my PT gig, with Friday and Sunday to go for this week. Next week, I'll be working there Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday ( not 100% on this one yet), then I'll work Friday 12-8 at my ft job, then I'll off until some time on Labour Day ( I suspect I'll work 11-7 or longer that day).  I've worked all the paid holidays so far this year, but I'm taking Thanksgiving off... It's not a paid holiday and I'm taking one long week-end for me this year....

Tomorrow is pay day, so I'll pay my bills and  have that task done. I've started savign bit of money for new sneakers for my pt job. I'm budgeting 100 for these, as my feet are my money maker, so good foot wear is vital... I'll be putting 5/shift away for these. I should have the money saved by November... Maybe I'll buy them on my 46th birthday... LOL

I'm off to soak in the tub, and then I may sit and read, or watch tv for a bit. I hope everyone is having a good week so far!

Friday, August 21, 2015

The good , the bad and the ugly sort of post...

The good... The weather has been good, hot and muggy... I managed to get to the beach for a few hours this week. It's tonic to my soul...

The bad... My job is being cut at work. I have to reapply for a similar position ( no worries, I'll still be employed and at the same pay scale). I've made the decision that if I have to go back to working shift work, I'm giving myself until Jan 2019 and then I'm done. I'll put in to retire, freeze my pension until I'm 60 and deal with it. I'll waitress until I can no longer do so.  I've felt a huge sense of relief since I decided that I can chose to walk away from my job and support myself waiting tables full time.

The ugly... I've calculate my debt's as to right now...  Hiding my head in the sand again... 16,000 in CC,'s ( WHich are all cut up or not activated) 13,000 loc, 93,000 mortgage, 22,000 car... Yikes, scary but doable... I've worked and failed and learned lessons along the way.  Slow but steady will win this race.  My lower back has been acting wonky this week... First time in a few years that it has caused me issues. I'll book a visit to the chiropractor for next week.   My heat pump is broken yet again... Waiting for a part... Which has added more stress to my life... it was 78 degrees in my house last night.

I'm keeping optimistic about things, as I know all of these things are a small blip on the radar. I'm still healthy, I have a roof over my head and friends and family who love me. What more can a person ask for?

Sunday, August 16, 2015

Now that August is half finished....

I've only got a few more weekends planned out... I went camping for the week-end with two friends from high school. It was fun, and good to chat up on each others lives...

I went with two of my siblings to Treego... Oh my god. I was terrified at a few points. I've got a slight fear of heights, and I almost lost my mind at my brother a couple of times... ( Please don't start across the swinging bridge while I'm half way through, I'm losing my balance here). My hands shook towards the end as I struggled with one of the very last obstacles, but I did it... I finished the entire course with them. Zip lining was fun, once I got the hang of it... LOL On one long one I got spun around and shot back about half way. I pulled myself back over and got it done. I'll add that being stubborn and the thought of having someone come and physically remove me from the course was enough to help me finish it!  We had a picnic afterwards and I picked up the dogs and drove back home. I'll be in bed early tonight, as I'm going to run to the beach for a few hours tomorrow morning. It's supposed to be really hot tomorrow, so we're going early to beat the heat and the crowds.

I have six weeks to go until my next set of days off... It'll fly by! Oh and here is a picture of me finishing the course on the zip line....


Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Ok, I'm fatigued...

That's the best way to describe how I'm feeling, fatigued... I blamed Sunday on being slightly hungover... Running an obstacle course, then going out for drinks at 45 not necessarily the best idea, but I did have a lot of fun... and some funny things happened Saturday night... I got hit on by a 25 year old, along with an invitation... Sorry bud, but not happening in my world, yet I was flattered and roared with laughter with my BFF since 1974 over it in the bathroom...

I slept til 11 on Sunday, got up and walked the dogs, went out for lunch with my momma, then I had a long nap, and went to visit my sister/cousin and her oldest daughter who is home on vacation. We sat around the kitchen table along with her daughters two best friends and had the best conversation. How wonderful is it to be two middle aged women who can talk freely with three 21 years old women! It made me feel very lucky.

I've worked both job for the past two days, and I'm off to  both again today. I tried to leave early both evenings, but its summer and we're running short staffed. Tomorrow I'm workign different hours at my FT job, and I'm off for the weekend. I'm heading camping with two friends from high school, and Sunday I'm treegoing with my family. I'm only working two shifts next week at my pt job, so I'll have an easier week. Next Sunday I'm planning on a beach day if possible... Fingers crossed that I can get it... The following weekend, I've got nothing in the books... I think I need that after everything that I've accomplished so far this summer.

I know this tiredness is just a blip in the system, so I'll eat well, rest a little more and just enjoy the time.... Happy Wednesday everyone...

Saturday, August 8, 2015

It's over...

I took part in a mud based 6 kms obstacle race today and loved every minute of it... with the  exception of the very first obstacle which was wading through and under ice cold, complete with ice cubes, chest high water... Yes, this is where I let my first f bomb of the day go off...  Climbing ropes, shimming up a tree and having a very handsome man catch me, because I got scared. I looked at him and said will you catch me if I fall, and he said yes... I actually managed to grab hands and jump down. I ran over half the race and walked the rest. I discovered that I like to run through the woods and jump over roots and bumps.  I've realized that I'm stronger that I thought, that if I really want to do something I can, once I let go of my fears... Conquering the fear is what it's all about... There were families taking part, people in their 60's, young teenagers, it was truly amazing. I am so grateful that I had the opportunity to do this. Next year, I'm doing a 12 km mud run somewhere. Not sure with who or when, but this was not my first and only. The energy of the crowd was amazing, the sky was overcast and cool, the smells of the trees and flowers in the woods really added to the adventure.  There were a few minor hiccups, but nothing too crazy. All in all, it was an amazing time. Now that I'm home, I've finally showered, did a bit of house work and waiting for some friends to stop by for drinks. Then, I'm going out to celebrate with some people who completed the run today.... Bring on the Sangria...

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Who am I said Sam? I am.... a mother, a daughter, a dog owner, a PF